I know I've been m.i.a...

but a lot has been going on! Ever since being back from vacation, I have worked pretty much every single day. woo-hoo. I miss Jon, I went through a few days of being depressed...I'm stressed financially..and you know how life is :P

hahaha.

Anyways, I'm in the mindset currently of being optimistic...you only live once! So this weekend I'm going car shopping, enough said.  I've never owned a really nice car....I think I more than deserve one.  My car is about to crap itself, I just have that gut feeling :X  So maybe I'll actually find what I'm looking for, and get a lovely car payment (that won't be too exciting every month) but I NEED a dependable car. And I'm finally  starting my main nursing classes this fall..which means clinicals..which means I can't miss because of a broken down car.   Also, Jon will be home soon..which means almost every weekend I'll be driving to his home (almost 2 hours away) to see him. So yes, new car = a must.  I dont care what anybody's opinions are on that one. duh.

Speaking of cars, hilarious story....the other day I totally fixed my car with an ice scraper...say what?! YES.
me.
blonde.
but fixed my car that wouldn't start...with an ice scraper.
SCORE.
So I had stopped at the gas station (to get a Monster..which I need to quit my bad habit of drinking that)
and when I got back in my car and turned the key, this is what I hear: "click......(silence)". so I tried about 2 more times. then I could feel my blood pressure sky-rocketing....and I sat there and was like SHIT.
Well last year, my starter had started to go out so sometimes my car would do this same thing, and I learned that if I hit the starter, that my car would start.,....so I was like maybe for some reason it's the starter again?
So I look around in my car for something that I can hit the starter with, and I found my ice scraper...
Mind you, I'm at this very busy gas station (parked right by the doors)...and I'm this blonde chick in dress pants/nice shirt..is popping her hood and going at it with an ice scraper...so I look and find the starter, and bang the shit out of it...then I get back into my car, turn the key..and it starts.  So I go shut my hood..and the looks on all these peoples' faces = priceless.
One guy asked me if I worked on cars..I was like "nope, but I know enough.." and he was like "holy shit, i'd say....I just watched a blonde fix her car for real with an ice scraper"..and I just gave him the eh, whatever shrug...got in my car and took off.

So needless to say, I"m quite proud of myself...and I need to get my car either fixed...or SOLD.

p.s. I need a new blog design...suggestions/help?

hello beach :)

I am currently at the beach! Only a few days left but I'm loving every single minute of it. And oh Mann am I gettin tan! Just wish my boy was here with me. :( anywhoo, I apologize for being completely m.I.a...some rough stuff happened to both my best chick friends before I left, so I was busy with them..keep my friends in your prayers for both their current but different struggles. Raven lost her baby boy who was 3 weeks old. And Melina got kicked out of her house by her rents. So I'm tryin to do as much as I can to help. But I deff needed this vacation! Laying out, boogie boarding, swimming, shark tooth hunting, walks on the beach, cold drinks in my hand, and ending every night with playing cards. But I've missed my blogging so I had to update from my phone :)

venting some random thoughts.

Considering we all know how much of a roller coaster life can be, I shouldn't be surprised with all the different things that have come up in my life that are changing, or may possibly change my "normal daily life".  My bestie got kicked outta her house, so maybe she'll move in....in fall Jon will come home and he wants me to move back home with him (1.5 hours away)...I want to SO BADLY, but we'll see how much I'll have to be here for school and go from there. I have vacation in LESS THAN A WEEK! I need a new car. I've gotten my official full-time status at work. All my clothes from last summer fall off of me, and honestly I hate it. I despise it. I despise being this skinny, and I know I need to gain some dang weight, but I also don't want to at the same time...oh and I don't know the best way to go about doing this.  I wish I had the extra $ for a gym membership.  I feel weird with any free time I get. I want to sleep all the time, and I think it's because I need more foooodd. and a life.  I've been pretty depressed lately...especially since it's a holiday.  Tomorrow I might go see firewords with my roomie & her friends just because I want to get out of the house and DO SOMETHING.  I'd rather be at work then home depressed.  But I love having time to read books...I'm just glad vaca is coming up soon, I know my emotions and feelings are all over the place cuz of this dang deployment and changes coming up, so I really need this time away. Countdown is 5 days :)